I was taking a trip down memory lane tonight, looking at pictures with my old crushes and the best times I had in Uni. I usually have a song that reminds me the most of one person. There is Metallica – Unforgiven for Razvan, Fort Minor – High Road for Calin, Linkin Park – Papercut for Voichita, Guns and Roses – November Rain for Dan.
And there is Hara – a Romanian band – singing N-ai habar (You have no idea) for Ovi. Ovi with his tall and broad frame. Ovi that could warm me up just by looking at me. Ovi that had filled many of my diaries’ pages. Ovi that fell in love with one of my friends while I still loved him. Ovi that I went camping with … and then went again with his girlfriend and another friend. Ovi and me shared a tent holding hands under the moonlight afraid of a bear… which proved to be nothing but the loud snores of the other guys we went with.
Ovi that shook hands with my dad and promised he would bring me back in one piece. I truly loved Ovi.
[Will add pics here of him so you know he’s not a figment of my imagination]
Ce bine-mi amintesc acum
Erai ca ploaia fara nori
Si curcubeu ti-eram in drum
Iti amintesti cumva de mine?
Eram ca focul fara fum
Si m-aprindeam doar pentru tine,
Acum imi spui ca n-am habar
Ca tot ce-i dulce-i si amar
Ca ce-a fost des e tot mai rar
Sa beau si golul din pahar.
Pune-ma, pune-ma, pune pe jar
I can still see it now
You were like the cloudless rain
I was the rainbow in your way
Over the flowers…
Do you still remember me?
I was like the smokless fire
And I would come alight for you,
Now you tell me I have no idea
That everything is sweet is also sour
That everything that was often is now rarer and rarer
I have no idea …
How to drink the emptiness from the glass
I have no idea…
Set me, set me, on fire
Basically a girl loves a boy and then the girl does not care for him anymore, accuses him of not understanding the world, of not being able to pull ropes and do things like other do (probably because he’s an artist). He chases her and reminds her of their love and time together. When she falls for him again, he sees that she could never be there for him as he was for her. In the end, she had no idea how to be his ideal woman.
Call me corny but this happens a lot. And I love the song. And even though I might not love Ovi anymore, everything that happened was not pointless.