So here I am on a Friday afternoon, thinking I haven’t shared much of myself with the online world lately. But why should I? Why would somebody on the other end of the world be interested in what I’m doing in my day to day life? What I like, what I don’t – what gets me laughing, what makes me sad?
It feels like an intimate part of yourself is set up for display, a showcase of your innermost self, a hologram made up of pieces of you, looking like a Picasso painting. heh. But I do want to shout out to the set “Action!”. I do want to see events unfold caused by my words or actions. I want to be a director in my life and not just an actor.
So, I’ve been going through the motions, setting up the scene – and voila! The latest and improved stage set. Nothing like the set from Dogville.
For all the people who don’t know what Dogville is, it’s a movie made by Lars von Trier in 2003, before the hype with The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo, before Melancholia. It stars Nicole Kidman (when she was still hot and had facial expressions) and the entire set is made up from chalk drawings. Yes, no stage props. Talk about small budget. Well, hey, the acting makes the movie, not the extra fantastic special effects.
So, my set is a bit more lively than this and it features all the people I know (either directly, or by association). The play has one act for every stage of my life and the lines are lively.
I am the casting producer, the lead actor, the supporting role, the lights person and the sound engineer. There are no double-takes. The filming and distribution happens in real-time. Everybody is invited to watch but only a few tune in. Hey, it’s not that exciting yet, but it will definitely be later on. There will be a long journey where the lead will discover a lost secret, there’s gonna be love and romance, a hunky main man, loads of love making in candle light, a parting, tears and depression (but not as bad as New Moon) and there’ll be more journeys to be had – each leading me closer to my destiny.
Nothing’s gonna happen if I stay put and hidden away from the world. I may be a private person, but being private keeps me away from adventure, mishaps, thrills and joys. Did you ever feel that the roller-coaster ride was awesome when watching it from the couch? Nope. You went on it and rid it. And man it’s fun screaming your lungs off, throwing up everything you’ve eaten afterwards and then riding it again.