Day 23 — Allowing another person to fully love me means I must…
tell them all about my dark secrets. Opening up is never easy but now I know that one of my secrets is not that bad. I mean, watching anime and reading manga – a few other people do it so I mustn’t be the only one who practices it!
Being a high-nympho is also known to the person who loves me (there’s no way I can hide something so obvious).
My last dark secret that I need to reveal to him may shun him away so I don’t know whether to spit it out or not! Well, considering that he does not read this blog and might never will, here it goes. I lied to him at the beginning of our relationship. I told him I was with two men before I was with him and in fact I was with only one and even with that one – rarely. I did not want to appear like “inexperienced” in his eyes so I boasted about my sexual prowness and he believed me because I am very good in bed (thanks to all the books I’ve read and all the smut I’ve seen 🙂 ).
So I went on and invented a sex-friends relationship with one of my mates who currenly lives in America and when I started dating my current bf, I “broke up” with the American stud to be with him. I know it feels kinda stupid now that it’s down on the paper but I did not want to look like a complete n00b when it comes to sex. I feel bad about lying to him and it did cause an argument once because he thought I was the slutty type, always looking to get laid. I’m very monogamous and I love him dearly but I don’t know now how to tell him the truth.
Well, I suppose this will be one of the secrets I’m going to take with me to the death bed 🙂